The Laziness of Grief

No one ever told me

How lazy I would be

How loneliness begets

Untidiness

No one ever told me

How the feeling of fear

Not fear itself

Lives in your gut

Some days

I wallow in self-pity

Other days

I push myself too far

No one ever tells you

How the silence

Makes you feel

Slightly concussed

And that sleep

Feels like a warm mud

Sucking you in

Talking myself through

Each day and longer

Evening

I chide myself

I coax myself

Through this stage

Of marriage

This stage of love

©March 30, 2025, Diane E. Dockum

Winter Poem



Crissy-Crossy
Backy-Forthy
Went the tracks
Upon the snow

Gray and bushy
Tails a shaking
Up the trees
And branches go

Deer and dogs
Squirrel and bunny
Skim and scamper
To and fro

Snow is melting
More is coming
Wind and rain
With ice and snow

Busy hooves and
Fuzzy footies
Beating tracks
Across the yard

Dark of night
And new moon coming
Stars and cold
Will freeze it hard.


By Diane E. Dockum
©December 30, 2024


Cardinalis cardinalis

A cardinal came to visit me
He brought his little wife
His bright red feathers tickled me
And brightened up my life

I’d been alone for quite some time
Was missing you today
I watched this little couple 
Flit about and dance and play

It made me smile and shed a tear
To see their tufted heads
So sweet their partnership was clear
Their song from beaks of red

Though the rain was coming down
They seemed happy as could be
And I was thrilled that they had flown
And landed in my tree


By Diane E. Dockum
©April 25, 2023

Time Melted Away

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I passed through town
Riding in the passenger seat
Of the Dodge

And watched the trees
Pass by
And watched

The telephone wires
Rise and fall
From pole to pole

And time melted away
Leaving only images
Of the time gone by

I passed through town
Riding on the hard wooden seat
Of the carriage

And watched the trees
Pass by
And watched the horses drink

From the trough outside 
The drug store
And the lady at the dress shop

Arranging her window display
Waved as we passed,
When my Dad spoke to me

And I returned to the seat
Of the pick up truck
Wondering where I had been





By Diane E. Dockum
©April 20, 2023

The Catalogues Have Arrived

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To paraphrase Phil 
From the movie City Slickers
If Catalogues were people I'd be China!

Something happened
When I reached 
Senior citizen status

Each day, catalogues arrive
In stacks of colorfully emblazoned 
Glossy paper, filling my mail box with temptations

There are the ones for clothing
If you are fat, with arthritis, and can’t fasten buttons 
Or for when you travel, which I never do

There is the hardware store 
Kind, with whatever works for
Whatever kind of household hack you need

There are the salves and potion
Kind, with subscription-worthy pots
Of goop that one absolutely needs

There is a little catalogue
Narrow, with a tea bag sample
That offers countless kinds of tea

Jewelry, make-up, razor blades
Vibrators, oils, candles
Wigs, and toupee catalogues

Where did I sign up for this
Deluge of paper?
Is there somewhere I don't know about

Where it's leaking catalogues
And if so, can I stick a rag
Into that hole?

Yet, some days I pick them up
And look, just in case
I might need something.



By Diane E. Dockum
©April 19, 2023



Change of Scenery

A view from camp on Raquette River, South Colton, NY


Go for a drive
Take a walk
Plan a trip
Jump off a dock

Swim to Greenland
Climb up a tree
Sit on the roof
Bounce on someone’s knee

Lie under the table
Sit on the stairs
Sleep on a pew 
Ride a few mares

Jump off a milk can
Look up not down
Roll up a hill
Head out of town


By Diane E. Dockum
©April 16, 2023

Some Days

Some days
     it's hard to move
     to get out of bed
     to open the curtains

Some days
     the promise of coffee
     or a shower
     is reason enough

Some days
     I don't bother to wear make-up
     or shower
     and put off getting dressed

Some days
     are too much trouble
     are too quiet and lonely
     but the idea of going out is unthinkable

Some days
     I look at old photographs
     to convince myself
     you were really here, with me. 

Some days
     I hope I will see you again
     I hope we recognize each other
     Some day



by Diane E. Dockum
©April 15, 2023

Photo by Diane E. Dockum

Okay, I Have Issues Letting Go



An old shoulder bag 
Caught my attention
In the basement
While I was doing laundry

And I thought it was
A lovely bag
With the leather
Embossment of flowers

And maybe I could 
Use it again
And the shape
Was so generous

But it was covered
With a green furry mold
I put it on the counter
By the sink thinking

I could save it
But then I realized
It was organic
And the leather

Was decaying
It was too far gone
So, I pushed it
Into the bin

With a little pain
In my heart
And a lot
Of regret


by Diane E. Dockum
©April 14, 2023

Strange Enchantment

Down a narrow winding lane, there suddenly appears
A little house, an olden house, gray and spent with years.
Once you've seen the lonely spot, your thoughts cannot depart,
Because the silence reigning there, lingers in your heart.

Greenest fields, forgotten lie, untouched by knowing hand;
Those loving hands and hearts now gone -- none to understand.
Save for the low, soft chirping of a friendly little bird,
There is naught to break the silence -- no other sound is heard.

What a strange enchantment seems to linger ev'rywhere,
While through trees and grasses, moves a vision, soft and fair.
Up the hill ascending, lightly through the mist she glides,
With her eyes fixed on the old house, where she still resides.

To the old house, as to heaven, o'er the shady lawn,
Drifts the dear old soul so sweetly, at the break of dawn.
To the east-view window walking, to her old armchair,
She gently whispers to a loved one, sitting near her there,
"Nowhere else in all the world, shines the sun so fair.
"Shines the sun so fair, my dear, shines the sun so fair."



By
EDITH SANBORN COBBLE
From her book, Drifting Sands

New Voices Publishing Company
New York: 1952
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The poem posted tonight is one from my Grandmother, Edith Sanborn Cobble, written around 1952. I think she was remembering her dear mother, my Great Grandmother who had died. I imagine she was relating a comforting thought of her mother returning to sit in her armchair by the home fire on the old homestead farm in Northern New York.

I have a legacy of poetry in my family. Both of my parents had Mothers who wrote. Whenever I feel stuck in my writing, I read one of theirs. Once in a while I feel that their voices should be heard, even though they are no longer here.

Dreary Dream

Exercise: Write a prose poem about a dream, but don’t say it’s a dream.





The driveway was muddy. There were still a few snowbanks around the yard and small house. I parked my car by the well and up on a small rise away from as much mud as possible.

Opening the door to the empty house, I was met with the stale smell of abandoned rooms and old carpet.

I was not sure why I had come back to this place. Memories of life here were beginning to resurface. 

The crib had been in this room. The cellar door was heavy and ancient. It was like a giant trap door, and took up almost all the hallway. 

The back bedroom was moldy on the ceiling just over the window. The closet floor had been patched with old license plates to keep the rats out.

Familiar curtains were hanging in the living room windows. There was not a sound, as there were no appliances in the kitchen or electricity to run them.

Darkness was coming. Why had I come here?

This house was no longer mine, yet I was here wandering through rooms I had once inhabited. Rooms where I had existed, not lived.

I looked at the door wanting to fling it open and run. This place was not where I belonged. The well was empty. It was cold here. I shivered.

A car pulled up the driveway and a man and woman stepped out and knocked on the door.

“Come in” I said inside my head, and I opened the door. I gave them the tour. Livingroom, kitchen, hallway, bathroom, bedroom.

“Cute”, the woman said.

“Who are you? I asked.

I couldn’t understand what they saw in this place, but handed the key over and went to my car.

Driving away, I saw them in my rear-view mirror, unloading their belongings.



Diane E. Dockum

© April 11, 2023

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