Archaeology

Attempts

Typing words on an empty file
The words seem like jars
Pouring out random fragments
Of thoughts
That clatter onto the page
Not turning into coherent lines
They lack wisdom
Or philosophy
It is nearly time to go to bed.
I feel the deadline closing in
A narrowing tunnel
Pinching out the light
It’s time to draw the curtains
And power down
Lock the doors
And start fresh tomorrow


©April 6, 2025
Diane E. Dockum

Wind and Trains

Wind came through
In the night
Thunder, lightning
Pounding rain
And trains

Vibrations in the walls
Wake me
Three thirty three a.m.
Sounds of a freight train
Make me wonder

Is it a tornado
And then I hear the whistle
Echoing off the houses
As it snakes its way through town

Flashes on the window-shade
Assaulting my eyelids
Cannon fire and rumbling
Hammer at my ears

Another train calls
Out through the wind
And another follows
Blasting holes in the storm

Cracking lightning stabbing
Hot light through the clouds
Percussion on the roof
And sleep is over
Say good morning and move on



©April 5, 2025
Diane E. Dockum

No Upcoming Events

How Selfish Am I?

How selfish am I
To think only of myself
When he is the one
Who really suffered
While I only watched
And could do nothing

He kept saying, "I'm sorry"
I am sorry
Sorry I could not
Make you well
Sorry I could not
Lift you out of pain

So cancer took
Another victim
And all I could do
Was watch
Helpless -- even now

I am sending my love
Out and hoping it
Falls near your soul

How selfish am I?
You have gone on a journey
Without me
And we used to do
Everything together

Except this time
I was not able to
Be beside you on the trip
Just part of the way -- for now



©April 2, 2025
Diane E. Dockum

The Laziness of Grief

No one ever told me

How lazy I would be

How loneliness begets

Untidiness

No one ever told me

How the feeling of fear

Not fear itself

Lives in your gut

Some days

I wallow in self-pity

Other days

I push myself too far

No one ever tells you

How the silence

Makes you feel

Slightly concussed

And that sleep

Feels like a warm mud

Sucking you in

Talking myself through

Each day and longer

Evening

I chide myself

I coax myself

Through this stage

Of marriage

This stage of love

©March 30, 2025, Diane E. Dockum

Winter Poem



Crissy-Crossy
Backy-Forthy
Went the tracks
Upon the snow

Gray and bushy
Tails a shaking
Up the trees
And branches go

Deer and dogs
Squirrel and bunny
Skim and scamper
To and fro

Snow is melting
More is coming
Wind and rain
With ice and snow

Busy hooves and
Fuzzy footies
Beating tracks
Across the yard

Dark of night
And new moon coming
Stars and cold
Will freeze it hard.


By Diane E. Dockum
©December 30, 2024


Go Forward

Don’t look back
At least, not today
I know the memories
Drift about your mind
And fill the space behind
Your eyes
But go forward
Not back
You are alive
You have a future
Time
Is always marching on

Diane E. Dockum

©June 8, 2024